Man, you wouldn't believe the most amazing things that can come from...
Some terrible lies...ahhh...

Weep for yourself, my man,
You'll never be what is in your heart

You must know life to see decay

I was singing to you, you were singing to me
I was so alive, never been more free

Funny how a melody sounds like a memory

And it feels like I am just too close to love you.

Got to be true to myself

So I'll be on my way

If terror falls upon your bed
And sleep no longer comes
Remember all the words I said
Be still, be still, and know

And my head told my heart
"Let love grow"
But my heart told my head
"This time no
This time no"

But you and I now
We can be alright
Just hold on to what we know is true

And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears.
Get over your hill and see what you find there,
With grace in your heart and flowers in your hair.

Who the fuck wants to die alone all dried up in the desert sun?

I don't get it. I don't get it. I don't get it. Every time I even consider or attempt 'getting it' I can't. I am just met with utter confusion, pain, and frustration. It is so much easier to just forget about ever trying to get it. Too many questions. Too many things I don't understand. I don't get it.

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I am the queen of deleting posts. Delete, delete, delete. Delete, delete. Good thing I don't have a penned journal, that shit would have been burned in the trash 10 times over.

What do I want out of life? The American dream: A husband, a house, and kids. At this point in time I only want one of those things. Can you guess which one? To get married? Ummmm... not so sure. Kids... hmm I don't know, I am learning towards no, thank you. To own a house, I would love to maybe purchase a condo. A pet? Yes please, the sooner the better. To travel? Duh! As much as possible.

I can't tell you how many times I have been in this limbo. But this time it is really sticking. I just wish I had a bigger picture of what I really want. I feel like there are so many avenues I would take if given the right opportunity at the right time. I guess it is time to start exploring my avenues!

Tom Petty - I Won't Back Down

Lyrics to I Won't Back Down :
(Tom Petty and Jeff Lynne)

Well I won't back down, no I won't back down
You could stand me up at the gates of hell
But I won't back down

Gonna stand my ground, won't be turned around
And I'll keep this world from draggin' me down
Gonna stand my ground and I won't back down

[Chorus:]
Hey baby, there ain't no easy way out
Hey I will stand my ground
And I won't back down

Well I know what's right, I got just one life
In a world that keeps on pushin' me around
But I'll stand my ground and I won't back down

Hey baby there ain't no easy way out
Hey I will stand my ground
And I won't back down
No, I won't back down